I cross my fingers
Trying to swallow the breath caught in my throat
Trying to stop my heart from somersaulting
And pray
Pray that it is some brilliant trick of the light
That the shadows fall perfectly on your face
And that magical twinkle in your eye
Has suddenly appeared
But hours pass
And - God damn it - you are there
I cannot live for a moment
Without your name echoing in my skull
Appearing at the end of sentences
Appearing in sheets of endless work
Appearing when I close my eyes
Where even darkness mocks me
With a vision of you
Why couldn't it have been a trick of the light?
That one glance I stole
When I felt my chest heave
And coul
Last time I checked, there were 20-something
poems about you. Back when I thought
using the word 'poem' in one
would make it more literary.
Now its transluscence
is giving way-
and getting more dull.
I'm either lazy or craven for not counting
how much have sprouted
since.
But then,
you wrote, too.
Did I ever make it up to 5?
I didn't understand why flash photography
wasn't allowed in museums;
even in those where the paintings
gloated they were fake.
But there are rare occasions;
when gathered pinpoints of heat
get to be too much.
They saw us;
with gazes bored deeper than pins
on a corkboard. And I saw it, too.
How it bothered your strid
Selling Yourself for the Cause by SophisticatedCleffa, literature
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Selling Yourself for the Cause
Fresh red scratches,
like tinsel down your back;
bruises,
like fairy dust
shine from you shoulders,
bright and bleeding,
swollen lips and a black
eye.
Two broken fingers,
fragile like biscuits from the oven,
blood where you were sat.
Blood where you were sat.
You never told me these things,
i undid part of my reality
only to stitch up yours
for a little while;
i don't know how,
I wasn't a good enough friend to ask,
i assumed and you,
you bled infinity and his wife
while waiting for my verdict.
Newspaper Skinned Boy,
i'm sorry i was so late.
letting out the atmosphere by creativelycliche, literature
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letting out the atmosphere
save your beating heart for something big,
or snap your fingers backward in your mind
while mine is break-break-breaking
("she is out of my league
this, this
is out of my league
and I don't know if I can handle it")
and I am holding my head above the ocean,
but sometimes I am sinking and I can't
keep myself from breathing in the water,
from letting all the atmosphere leave
my labored lungs
because the waxing moon is plastered on the pale blue sky,
and when the sun is setting we are asking for the night to trust us
and I have never been so good at trusting, no
I have never been so good at letting anything in
but water and
I am drowning
my jeans are the color of the pre-storm sky
(the tone reminds me of your eyes).
i am swathed and swarmed in chromatism (a dazzling display),
but
nobody glances my way.
somedays i wish i was a chameleon,
so my pigment would burn
on my skin and everyone would watch me
in envy. (maybe they’d learn)
(the envious joy of illustrious sheep;
oh to be so easily satisfied)
but i’ve never seen a chameleon yet
(oh to meet the color of your eyes).
(i’m not one to gamble, but I’d bet
on any midday pre-storm skies)
Forget the cataracts, you've been blind since '98 by SerenadeTheAsylum, literature
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Forget the cataracts, you've been blind since '98
I swore these
stitched up and ripped out
and painted over fingernails
could never do
much more than scratch at
empty
jack o lantern lids,
but inside i was
shouting
fuck,
(where’s the fire,
where’s the
ghost of a girl?)
halloween was 2 months ago and
I’m still a fucking monster,
my eyes are brand new but I
can’t see shit.
I swore I’d
spit on the difference
between old and
experienced, that
teeth could rot before a girl could
talk
and these canines were
all I had left,
but I didn’t mean they wouldn't
tear you to shreds just to shut you up
‘cause baby,
this throat cou
I jammed the paper shredder with dandelion heads
after the sun came up this morning,
call it photophobia but I just hate it
how the days keep passing even when I
really need a break,
how the skies can be clear even when it’s
raining in my head.
I guess beauty is a concept
but I needed something tangible,
so I settled for flowers instead of hearts
just this once, who would’ve guessed
they don’t go down quite as easy.
I just want to go home by SerenadeTheAsylum, literature
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I just want to go home
I was cracking my skull wide open, looking
north for an answer and growing
flowers like compass roses
inside of my lungs,
(one night in July when the rain refused to stop)
and i couldn’t help but notice how that noise,
water hitting palms, palms turned up in innocence
(out the upstairs window, reaching like they always are,
reaching for something to wash away the old paint and
apologies)
(re)sounded just like a question, an ivory song
that sticks to your wrists
I never liked the word goodbye
it implies that you'll never return
that you'll never see each other again
so, instead of goodbye i will say
until the next time.
If you go to my profile I have deleted my entire gallery.
which isn't to say that I have stopped writing, quite the opposite in fact.
but I have checked out of this room
-for now at least-
and i will still check in on all of you
and I'm quite sure i will be back
but right now I'm working with hard copies
and this paper-thin alias of mine needs a break
hopefully I can stop hiding behind it
hopefully I will be braver when I'm back
so this is no